NaNoDrums
Yeah, that title kinda blows. I was going for a clever version of NaNoWriMo Doldrums.
And now, onto the topic at hand.
A few days back I had a glitch and my main working file for this years project got corrupted. I had backups, but I assumed that some part of the reason that the file got messed up was that I simply had too much stuff in it. So as part of recovering my words I backed everything up to even more locations and I split my file. Now I have an older file that has the first 25-ish pages of The Just Desert and another file that I am currently working within. And somehow, I managed to make my word count anyhow.
Then I foolishly decided that if could recover from that and do my writing, I could work on getting a new episode of BrainWyrms up for the 13th and get my word count done. And maybe I could have if I hadn’t allowed myself to completely frog off all morning. I read womics for crying out loud! By the time I gave up, my eyes were crying and I hadn’t quite made my counts.
Yesterday, the 13th, I decided to stop being fancy with the BrainWyrms Show and did some nice work on it. I found the Time Shift tool, which has already proven to be AWESOME! But then my eyes started to hurt and I had to take out my contacts. I managed to finally break my beloved glasses this week, so once the contacts come out I am utterly blind. Even with the wee eee sitting on my chest, screen literally inches from my nose, I cannot see what I am doing well enough to do anything. So, the contacts came out and I had to go to bed with a grand and whopping total of 184 words. That hurt.
I also found out that I cannot use AbiWord on my thumbstick and transfer the file between Ubuntu and Windows XP and Windows 2002. I don’t know if it is the version differences. I don’t know if it is just my personal thumbdrive. I don’t even know if it somehow has to do with the way that I remove the drive when I am done with it. All I know is that I’ve lost my files three times. Each time it has happened, everything was great and then I switched computers. And then the files wouldn’t open and couldn’t be deleted. So now, instead of being able to run around with my files and just work from wherever I may be, I am going to keep them on Google Docs. At least I know I’ll have backups.
So, I’m sort of down in the dumps over my craptastic word count and I’m annoyed about my working solution turning out to be a failure.
In just a few hours I’ll be heading up to Greenfield, MA and attending the local “indie” games thing, JiffyCon. I can’t wait. I wanted to go to the two previous JiffyCons but various things came up and I simply wasn’t able to attend. This time, everything was planned out well in advance. Life tried to strike back and prevent me from going, but I persevered. Just a few more hours.
And I’m suddenly doing my typical freak out. I don’t wanna go! What if I say stupid things and they all hate me and mommy I wanna go home!
Mix that together with how I’m feeling about NaNo and my increasing sleep debt and I’m a whining, tired, stupid Scry. Did I mention the audio hallucinations have started now? Yeah. Bugs. Crawling bugs in my headphones. I checked. There are no bugs. I can hear them crawling in my ear. I switch the left and right sides. The bugs switched too.
=D