Emo Scry is a Wanker
Oh my gorsh, I am such a big freaking loser.
First off, I have somehow managed to acrue a $400 usage charge on a phone with unlimited data and unlimited text. Which means it is utter boosh and I just need to call AT&T and tell them to fix it. But I can’t. I’m too damn scared of the FREAKIN’ phone to do it. I am going to end up eating another huge charge because I still cannot deal with phones. I’ve made myself sick for the past week trying to balls up to do it.
And the kicker to that is that as soon as I actually DIAL the phone, I’ll be fine. Such a stupid phobia.
Secondly, I’m totally and ridiculously freaking out now because a tech journo, Ian Morris, that I follow responded to a random tweet of mine. He bloody follows me!?
Yeah, he does. Ack! Why? Stage fright anyone?
For all the effort I have put into getting over caring what others think of me for the past… oh… 18 years, I am abjectly terrified by having to interact with people who I perceive as being either my equals or betters. I can comfortably deal with dip shits and despise them for it, but I FREAK OUT over anyone else paying attention to me because I might do something stupid.
And the stupid thing that I do… is freak out. Such a circle of … *deep breathes*
Sorry about the whining, folks, but I needed to vent a little. I promise it won’t happen again. Today.
EDIT: I do not consider you to be a dip shit. You are one of the folks that scares me. Especially if you are my friend.
Don’t be afraid. I am just as afraid of you as you are of me.
You seem to do a better job of hiding it.
But thanks for the sentiment. And I gotta say, you sounded like you were pretty comfortable when you did the AZ Tour a few months. Well, except on Evo @ 11. They kinda ran roughshod, but … well, LOL, that’s part of the charm.